I gave you a year, the year is done.

Priorities

I found this picture several weeks ago. I intended to write a blog around it, but the event is faded to the point where I’m not sure what to say, other than…
 
Sometimes we as people just DO things. We do stupid things, which if we took the time to think about them we probably wouldn’t do. Usually this is limited to lane changes without checking the blind spots, or maybe tossing a potato into the microwave to see if it’ll explode. The redneck term for the phenomenon is “Hey y’all, watch this!” The stupidity of these actions ranges from minorly retarded to resulting in death. I don’t understand this inherent impulsiveness. We shake our heads at these decisions made without mental consideration, and give them Darwin awards.
 
But what about when these decisions start straying across lines from the realm of unintelligent into the realm of immoral?
 
It seems this is less acceptable. No one shakes their heads and shrugs. No one laughs. They shake their heads in judgment, disappointment, and pity then. It’s okay to be stupid, because that reflects your mental state. You can’t help that as much, supposedly. Sure you can study, and choose whether or not to develop your faculties, but not doing so isn’t inherently bad. It’s just lazy. But if you’re immoral, now that’s a reflection of your values. Values, now that’s character. Never mind that mental laziness reflects values as well. If you have poor character you weren’t raised right, or else you rebelled. If you have poor character… you’re a bad person. Moral decisions can’t be snap decisions like mental ones. Moral decisions are made ahead of time when you choose your values. Any immoral decision reflects a previous, willful decision to disregard goodness, because it’s not valuable. Mental decisions are affected by suddenness, can be surprised… but if you’re surprised into doing something immoral then you just weren’t really all that moral to begin with. Right? Doesn't it seem like this is the prevalent attitude?
 
This seems to me to be the way it’s perceived. I sit here and scratch my head and wonder why I do the things I do… I didn’t really want to. Sure I went along with it, sure I suppose I decided to… but I never meant to. It was snap. And maybe deep down I do have screwed-up values; in fact, I definitely do. Maybe it takes the snap situations to show ourselves who we really are. But when it’s just stupid, the reaction is “Haha. Turns out you’re silly!” When it’s immoral? “How could you let yourself get this way? Why aren’t you improving yourself? Why couldn’t you control yourself, at least? And also: I don’t want to associate with you because maybe you will influence me. At the very least, you’re not inclined in your heart of hearts to be a good friend, even if you try to fake it.”
 
Not everyone. Not by a long shot. But some of the people who matter.

It's frustrating.

:.

And it's not even 0800 yet.

0100
Me: I should go to bed. Four hours doesn't make for even sleep cycles, but oh well I will live.
My body: Tired. Sleep times now?

0411
My body: You said something about early. Approximating, just finished sleep cycle - AWAKE!
Me: AAAAAA I'm awake and the alarm hasn't gone off I'm late for work! *finds clock* Oh. Okay. *gets water*

0430
Well only an hour left to sleep, sleep cycle is an hour and forty, but oh well.
My body: ...

0500
*Alarm goes off*
My body: No. Not done yet.
Me: ZZZZZ *oblivious*

0610
My body: Okay done now! Ding!
Me: ... ah crap.

0620
God: TORRENTIAL DOWNPOUR
Me: ?! SHI*!

0630
Sammy (truck): hydroplane woooooo!
Me: AAAAAAAA IMADIE
My body: Death? What?
God: Miss Me yet?
My body: Death. *begin hiccup initiation sequence*

0700
My body: *arrives at work 15 minutes late*
God: Seriously.
Me: Yah srsly!

The end.

(Just to clarify I didn't actually die)

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